“I was so busy trying to fit in, and then it was like, You don’t fit in, and you ain’t supposed to fit in.”
Actor, singer, and all around entertainer Billy Porter has been blazing a trail in entertainment since his Broadway debut in the 1994 revival of Grease! This Pittsburgh native was meant to stand out and has been doing so for quite some time, but now with mainstream network hits like Pose and American Horror Story: Apocalypse under his belt, everyone is taking notice!
Porter covers OUT Magazine for this years OUT100 list and we couldn't imagine anyone more worthy of the honor. Yes the theatre star sat down with the mag to discuss everything from his breakout TV roles to his iconic characters of the past and the amazing story of the man behind it all.
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It’s rare to see an actor sustain a flawless performance through a two-hour film. On FX’s Pose, as the electric ball emcee Pray Tell, Billy Porter did it through a season of eight one-hour episodes, segueing from clocking competitors on the year’s fiercest runway to mourning the loss of his on-screen lover to AIDS to sharing tender chemistry with co-star and fellow Out100 honoree Mj Rodriguez — all without a visible hint of effort. “It had to be Pose,” Porter says between takes of this cover shoot, his first for Out. “And I had to be ready for it. I had to live through what I lived through.”
Before creator Ryan Murphy called Porter about joining Pose in June 2017, the performer had just come off the previous TV pilot season un-cast, unfulfilled, and in the midst of what he calls a “breakdown.”
“I was like, Is this gonna work out? Should I try something else? It’s been 30 years now,” Porter says. And while those 30 years have surely not been without highlights, his uphill climb suggests he’s one of the more resilient stars in showbiz.
Porter was brought up in the Pentecostal church in Pittsburgh, came out as gay at 16, and says that “every bad thing that could happen happened” (that included bullying, condemnation by family, and — as he revealed to Out.com in a crushing op-ed on October 31 — childhood sexual abuse). One strength Porter always knew he had, though, was his singing voice, and in 1990, it brought him to New York City, where he landed his first theater role in the original cast of Miss Saigon.
And yet, while also studying acting at Carnegie Mellon, he faced new challenges. “I was pigeonholed into the only thing that the industry could handle at the time: the magical fairy faggot,” Porter says.
“Don’t get me wrong: What I was given was an opportunity to stop the show, but when it came to my humanity, nobody wanted to discuss that.”
Spend an hour with Porter, and you’ll see all the facets of him that also make up Pray Tell: the excitement, the anger, the pain, the gratitude, the irrepressible animation, and, most of all, the spirit. It was also in the ’90s that Porter began to grasp his artistic integrity and what he wanted to give the world. As he reminisces he invokes philosophies snagged from Maya Angelou and Oprah. “How can I be of service?” he says. “What does that mean — service — in an industry that’s inherently narcissistic? How do you do that? You look the motherfuckers in the face who say you have to hide, and you choose authenticity when it’s not popular.”
But that’s not easy for a gay man of color who knows his unique gifts make him “very specific,” and alternately too nuanced and too dynamic for the many drab roles he’s been offered. It took more of the ’90s and some of the 2000s — when he was releasing some of his first music, eventually living in Los Angeles, and facing rejection while chasing standard notions of fame — for Porter to really start living his truth. “I didn’t even know I wasn’t dreaming big enough,” he says. “I was so busy trying to fit in, and then it was like, You don’t fit in, and you ain’t supposed to fit in.”
Porter moved back to New York in 2002 “with a new kind of creative identity,” writing and directing plays before finding the first two roles in which he actually saw something of himself. One was as Belize in Broadway’s 2010 revival of Angels in America; the other was as drag queen Lola in the original run of Kinky Boots — a role for which he refused to creatively compromise, and one that won him a Tony in 2013. “And this is the service part,” Porter says.
“Somebody needed me to stand on that stage as a black, out, gay actor, who took every hit that comes with that kind of life, to stand triumphant and be rewarded for making the right decision.”
He pauses, muses some more, then later says,
“So, the journey to what you’re responding to in Pose is all of that. That whole life.”
Porter praises Murphy as a creative who “understands theater people, and the forgotten person,” and Porter, now 49, had long identified as both. He was originally asked to play the dance teacher on the show, and respectfully took the audition but advised it wasn’t the best use of his skills. It was then that Murphy wrote Pray Tell for Porter — a part that has him matching wits with ball consultants like Jack Mizrahi and Twiggy Pucci Garcon, paying tribute to the friends he lost to AIDS in the ’90s, and being as “specific” as he wants.
“What I love about being the age I am, and having been in the business for so long,” he says, “is that I get to show up, and I don’t have to prove that I’m worthy or deserving. It’s like, Can he act? That question was on the table for a long time. Today, it’s nice, and I’m trying to breathe into it. How am I happy for myself while the world is falling apart? I’m trying to find that balance and lean into the joy while simultaneously going out and fighting every day.”
Porter is one of the many Black actors and presenters on this year's OUT100 list, including Queer Eye's Karamo Brown, comedian Wanda Sykes, and Pose co-stars Indya Moore, Mj Rodriguez and Dominque Jackson, RuPaul's Drag Race and Broadway star Peppermint, comedian Jaboukie Young-White and media personality/activist Ashlee Marie Preston. Other Hollywood notables include Pose writer, producer, author and activist Janet Mock, producer Alana Mayo and Dear White People creator/director/producer Justin Simien.